Chapter 175 Let’s Just Stop Already

 

 Looking back, the previous translator stopped translating at less than a third of the page count. And now we've already passed around 200 pages of the page count's midpoint of the novel.

 

Chapter 175 Let’s Just Stop Already

 

We looked upon Auriga’s expression, it was shocked, and filled with fear.

I’m sure that he’s suffering so much that’s it’s unimaginable to us, thinking just how much he’s being resented.

Ever since he got his memories back, I’m sure he kept thinking of what to do, how to apologize, and not knowing how to atone for his sins, he kept on suffering.

Without even making any slight stir on his body, he just stands there as his whole body shivers.

“Auriga............ Sorry. Usually, when in a field trip, we’d be passing by the bus driver when we got on the bus, and then once the bus started to hit the road we’d be told about the bus driver’s name...... but I not only don’t remember your name I also don’t remember your face.” (Velt)

If it’s the beautiful bus guide then it’d be different story, there’s no way I can remember even the bus driver. I didn’t even get to see his face clearly.

Honestly, that’s how we treated him among us ourselves in the first place.

Certainly, we never thought that we’d be having an introduction like this.

“I............ in this world............ was told that I should be a hero, by many people.” (Auriga)

Auriga is, speaking out his story inarticulately.

He was deranged when facing Miyamoto but, right now, has he become so surprised that he calmed down instead?

Whichever it is, as he earnestly searches for the words to say, he is facing us from the front.

“But in the fight against the demihumans and demons...... no matter what...... a world that has nothing to do with race, a world where everyone can get along and laugh together...... and.... a place where they can unite no matter who they are........ if that world were to be created.......” (Auriga)

However, in the next moment, his eyes suddenly opened wide, and he shouted to the point of breaking his own throat.

“It was me who has once destroyed that kind of world! It was me who robbed the children off a future where they all can get along and laugh together!” (Auriga)

In the end, he only calmed down at the beginning, he immediately hugged his head and crumbled down in agony and suffering.

“What I came to remember was, it was so sudden........ e, even now, I can see it in my dreams! That day, I suddenly turned the steering wheel, the bus then shaken greatly, in just an instant the children’s who were having fun chatting around, eating snacks, playing games, and laughing at each other were..... in an instant, it turned into screams..............! The guardrail then broke, then everything rolled over so many times...........” (Auriga)

When we listened to his story, we all remember back of what happened at that day.

Ayase breaks down into crying without being able to hold back.

“Ah, the, burning bus.........in my fading consciousness, I didn’t even manage to move an inch as the children in front of my eyes were........ kh, a.....ah, aaaaaaaaaaah! This, this murderer! A, aaaaaah! Idiot fool! Just die, trash bastard!” (Auriga)

“Auriga.........” (Velt)

“Why! Why am I being called a hero in this world! Why, why were they looking at me with envious gaze! Why, why were those little children looked at me with those shining eyes! Stop it, stop................ aaaaaaaaaaahhh!” (Auriga)

More than worrying about what to do with the grudge coming from us, he was unable to bear his own sin and ended up suffering over and over.

“From then on.......... no matter how much I think, I never find the way to atone for my sins....... no matter how much I have saved this world, it’s got nothing to do with you all......... instead, with me being in the middle of people who sang praises to me, while they sang their praises the souls of all of you will blame me and disparage me and then.........” (Auriga)

That’s the reason of why he, Auriga disappeared. At that time, it must be because he hasn’t reunited with anyone in this world that the thought of us also here never crossed his mind.

As he kept on rescuing the human race, he’d then be praised as a hero, he must be thinking that ‘is doing that really have any meaning? Has his sin now gotten slightly lighter?

As he kept asking himself about that, he ended up becoming unable to bear it.

“I don’t beg to be forgiven. It’s just, no matter in what form I wanted to apologize to you all......... I wanted to atone! However, I don’t have any idea at all of what should I do to atone in this world! You all who I should atone to, your bereaved families too, I can’t meet them here! And I never got any of them, not a trial, not compensating to others, nor any kind of punishment from society!” (Auriga)

Then, at the end of suffering after so many years, Auriga reunited with Miyamoto. And then today, with us.

“Please....... just kill me.......... there’s nothing else, I can only atone for my sins with my life! There’s no other, there’s no other way for me to atone other than be killed by the hands of all of you!” (Auriga)

He finally found the way after being reincarnated and lived his life, the people he need to atone to and the way to atone.

That is to be killed by the people he has killed.

That’s the only thing Auriga wished for from the bottom of his heart.

“..................I guess so............”

At that moment, even with face is full with bitterness, Kagami still opened his mouth.

“It sure is mysterious....... in this world, despite having done even more hideous things than you did....... I still can’t forgive you for that accident..... I know this sound like putting Mackey Mouse himself as if he is above the shelf. But, as Kagami, I myself can’t forgive you.” (Kagami)

Aah, I understand that. If there are guys that considered what happened as an accident, then there are also those that can’t help but bear grudge about it.

It can’t be helped. Because, the way someone think is up to each individual after all.

“Yeah, ......that’s right............. the way you think isn’t wrong at all...... all the faults are, all lies on me after all, everything began from me.” (Auriga)

Auriga himself once again affirmed it, then also accepted it.

And everyone too, without stopping the two, or refuting their words, they just watch as the situation unfolds.

However, it was at that time.

“Hei, Ryuuma. How about you?” (Kishin)

Milco who was always watching over the situation, asked a question to me.

“To be honest, me don’t know it anymore. Well, it has been very long me living as Kishin but, inside me, the accident that day has become nothing but memory. But, me can also understand Mister Kagami’s reason. So, what are you thinking?” (Kishin)

Instead the two of them, Milco went and asked it to me instead.

With those words, Ayase and others all turned their sights on me.

No, hey, why is it me now? Or so I wanted to complain to them but, right now I want to honestly answer it.

“My life too also changed much because of that.  I got reincarnated into this world, became rebellious since childhood, be it my parents or everyone around, all weren’t able to understand the real me, I thought of them as people who didn’t know about the real me. That’s why, I thought of everyone as other people, and lost my nerve to them. Perhaps that happened because I thought myself more strongly as Asakura Ryuuma not as Velt Jeeha. That’s why, had I met with Auriga at that time, perhaps at that time I will be flaring with abuse and in the end decided to kill him.” (Velt)

But, there was a certain day that made me changed from that.

It was something I regret.

My dad and mom died, in this life of the so called Velt Jeeha, it was the day where he realized just how precious they were to him.

“My dad and Mom died, and as I was in the midst of despair and regret, someone who cried together with me was Forna........ then, because of the words Sensei said, I realized something.” (Velt)

That day, Sensei said this

-------just remember this, you are Velt Jeeha. It got nothing to do with Asakura Ryuuma. And someone who loved Velt Jeeha from the bottom of her heart in this world, she is right by your side. And that’s, an unmistakenable truth, something real

“............Sensei, told me that. And from then on I lived as Velt Jeeha........ or so I intended. Despite that, I still went to look for Kamino because of my lingering attachment, then I got reunited with you guys, .....then, today, I met Auriga, and I realized something.” (Velt)

“What?” (Kishin)

“I realized that I still can’t live myself to the fullest as Velt Jeeha. To leave behind the things of the previous life in the previous life, it doesn’t seem to be something so easily cut off like that. Sensei, he prays for the happiness of the family he left behind in the previous life, and in this current one he lives as a human of this world, despite all that.”

I still haven’t live as Velt Jeeha to the fullest.

“That’s why, I’m changing the way I think.” (Velt)

Therefore, what should I do?

“Ayase, Kagami. I just told you right? Whether I thought that it was good that I died at that time or thought that it was good that I got reincarnated. Or whether I cursed it because I died at that time. Cursing because I got reincarnated into this world. Let’s just put a stop to all that. It’s like what Biyama said. I too, will say that I am glad that I had been born in this world as Velt Jeeha.” (Velt)

That’s why, I am Velt Jeeha that was born on this world. That’s the thing that is important.

In order to clearly said that, I had, resolved myself.

It might be not actually an important thing, it might be just for form sake, but still it’s something important for us.

“That’s why, everyone, will you stop it from today on?” (Velt)

What am I trying to stop them of? As everyone are tilting their heads to my words, I continued to talk.

“We, from today on, how about we stop calling each other with our previous life’s name?” (Velt)

It’s true that if we keep calling ourselves like [Asakura] or [Kagami], no matter how much time passed we will still keep on clinging on that.

“Wait, that........ that means, in other words.......” (Arusha)

“OH~, it finally comes out huh.” (Kishin)

“Uwaaaah, really?” (Althea)

“To think that, such words would come out of you......” (Barnando)

“Hey, A, Asakura, kun, what are you saying....... by that you mean......” (Kagami)

Everyone seems confused but, of course they would.

We won’t be calling each other with our previous life’s name. That in other words, means that we would part with our previous life.

“Well, if you guys gonna use it among yourselves then just do as you like. But in exchange for that, don’t call me Asakura from now on alright.” (Velt)

Honestly it’s very late already, it might be not necessary to change the way we call our names but, at least for me I think that it’s a necessary ritual.  

“That’s why, from now on I won’t call you Ayase. I will call you Arusha.” (Velt)

“!!” (Arusha)

“I won’t call you Milco anymore. From today on I will call you Kishin.” (Velt)

“Fufu...... OH~.” (Kishin)

“I won’t call you Miyamoto from today on. You’re Barnando.” (Velt)

“Hoho, it does feel weird no?” (Barnando)

“Not Biyama. You’re....... you’re, in this world, what’s your name again?” (Velt)

“Hah, aren’t you really stupid? Stop messing around! It totes Althea you know!” (Biyama)

“And Jackpot, always, will be Jackpot.” (Velt)

“Hmm~? I ain’t really understand it but, ya mean ya’ll call me with one name ‘ight? Aaah, dat’s good. Bro ya all, keep callin’ me with so many names that it made me confused.” (Jackpot)

One by one, as if ascertaining them, I faced them right from the front from the beginning and called out their names

And then,

“That’s why, from today on you are Mackey Mouse to me. Not Kagami.” (Velt)

 “............Asa.......ku........” (Mackey)

TL note: Huh, I just used Kagami for their names in the brackets because I kinda feel weird being reminded of Mickey Mouse so often lmao. Also having Kishin Kaiser Kagami all have K as their names feel fun. Guess gotta change that now.

“Not Asakura. I’m Velt. Remember that.” (Velt)

For just form sake? If I can’t do it even just form sake, then no matter how much time passed I’d always gonna be dragging on it.

I, yeah, distinctly, declared it to Kagami....... no Mackey.

“Pu.......fufu, fufufu......”

And then, a sound of someone’s laughter being held earnestly was heard.

It’s Arusha.

Arusha is desperately trying to hold down her mouth with both of her hands, and in the end she unable to hold it, then laughed aloud.

“Haha, ahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! You, you’re saying those words that’s so unlike you, and with such a serious expression on your face, I thought ‘what is he going to say, but, fufu, ahahaha!”

When I realized it, starting with Arusha laughing, everyone also let out their voices and laughed.

“HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!” (Kishin)

“Fofofofofofo!” (Barnando)

“Aaahahhahhahha, super wierd! Really, sheesh~, you, actually such a character? It totes really funny~!” (Althea)

Uu, wah, my bad alright.

I glared back at them in bad mood but all of them keep laughing while saying stuff like [he sus], [real shy], or [out of character~].

But, even as they’re having an explosive laugh with even tears coming out, they all one by one straightened themselves out with smiles.

And then,

“I’m Arusha Arclein. It might be too late but..... please take care of me for the longest of time, Asaku...... no, Velt Jeeha-kun♪Mackey-kun, Kishin-kun, Althea-san, and Barnando-kun too.” (Arusha)

Arusha somehow said it with such a refreshed look on her face.

And then, others too started to call out their names one after another.

“OH~, it’s a surprise for Miss Arusha to add [kun] to my name. Me is, Kishin Ouga. Hallo, mai furendo!” (Kishin)

“To think that I would have [kun] added to my name at this age, I am Barnando Gabbarna-ja.” (Barnando)

“Uwaah~, everyone’s sure are in their springtime of life huh~, heck, isn’t it fine? I too really like this kind of atmosphere! Well then, I’m Althea Majestic! The guy who forgets my name is totally out of it!” (Althea)

“Ooh~, and, do I introduce myself here too? Aighty, I’m Jackpot! It’s fine like this right?” (Jackpot)

And then, everyone look at one lone man.

Mackey.

“.................................” (Mackey)

He has the strongest attachment to the previous life more than anyone, what will he do?

As he glared with such an intense disagreeable look on his face, I can see that gradually his expression somehow turned into one of resignation.

“Coward............. really coward........... you use such an abuse of the majority, really coward. If I were to rage out here, it’d be me who’d be the boorish one.” (Mackey)

“.........nah, if you don’t want to do it then why not? But still, I will keep calling you as Mackey.” (Velt)

“Uwaaaaaah, uwaaaah, friggin’! Really friggin’! It’s terribly friggin’! If I refuse then I’d be the only one being left out.” (Mackey)

Mackey hugs his head and spun round and round as if tilling a paddyfield. As he keeps saying coward this coward that, somehow the light on his expression gradually returning.

“Sheesh, really, seriously friggin’........ why is this, that’s........ Velt-kun......” (Mackey)

At that moment, we once again laughed out loud. Mackey who’s so very rare to hide himself in embarrassment is so fresh and irresistible.

“Wa, wait a moment..... , Miyamoto-kun!”

At that time, Auriga who was in a daze let out his voice.

However, those words were answered without delay.

“I heard you-ja, Auriga. My name is plain old Barnando-ja.” (Barnando)

“B, but!” (Auriga)

“What are you to do-noja? Kagami....... no Mackey. What wish you to do to unto this fellow? I myself, am still have some scores to be settled with you. However, to this fellow in front of you, what do you wish to do?” (Barnando)

To that question, even as Mackey gazed at Auriga, he instantly laughed scornfully.

“Hey, Auriga-chan. I don’t know what you should do to atone yourself. .............To be honest, there’s nothing that comes to my mind. That’s my answer.” (Kagami)

“Tha, that’s.........” (Auriga)

“But, well, if I were to say there’s still a regret from Kagami in me, wonder what is it...... I heard that, even with your soul went and crossed over the worl you were still tortured by your own feelings of guilt, it makes me feel that my soul can now rest in peace.” (Mackey)

And then Mackey laughed. It wasn’t a crooked laugh filled with malice.

It’s merely a laugh from the bottom of his heart that appeared on his face.

“Auriga-chan. I’m not fussing over the you from the previous life. I’m, well, friggin’ enjoy how things are right now, and will keep on living.” (Mackey)

“A, u..........a, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!” (Auriga)

Auriga screamed as his tears drop down. Honestly, no one can say whether Auriga’s atonement of his previous life has already over or not.

But, we now slightly change the way we see the world, it feels like making us feel a bit more grown up.

“Oi trash, just how long are you gonna keep talking? Just, have it enough already, let’s just go somewhere else. I’m already hungry.” (Yuzuriha)

“..........Yuzuriha~.....”  (Velt)

“Hiiik!” (Yuzuriha)

“We’re having a growing up scene just now, read the atmosphere will ya!” (Velt)

“Hi, hiiiiiiiiiiin! It, it hurts, sto, stop, no, not my butt! Ugh, just because of trash! Making me as if an animal, ah, augh, stop!”  (Yuzuriha)

Despite being in an island of trash, the world now seems slightly more brighter.

“Now now, Velt-kun, don’t tease on Princess Yuzuriha, ........fufu.” (Arusha)

“O, oi, what the, Arusha, you seem to be in quite the good mood.” (Velt)

“Eh? Is it so? But. Fufu...... after all, you know right?” (Arusha)

“What?” (Velt)

“You said it yourself right? You won’t be fixated to the previous life anymore right? Then, you won’t be fixated on Kamino Mina, it means you will treasure the person closest to you right now, isn’t it?” (Arusha)

“Ah, yeaaaah, see, I said it clearly right? That’s that, and this is this.” (Velt)

“..........................hah? This Velt-kun!” (Arusha)

I wonder why, if I were to put those words on my mouth it’s always sounds cheap, I’m not that kind of character so I absolutely won’t say it.

But, this right now, it’s like [that] huh.

“OH~, Velt if you corner Miss Arusha too much, you’ll be in a pinch!” (Kishin)

“Fofofo, sure is nice being young~.” (Barnando)

“I mean, Velt, Don’t go joking around by hitting Yuzu-cchi’s butt! This pervy perv lolicon bastard!” (Althea)

“Yuzuriha~, lookie, it’s bad if ya don’t properly behave!” (Jackpot)

“Well, finally it’s the usual atmosphere-dazou.” (Kaizer)

“Hihahaha, ain’t that nice, Velt-kun gonna act quick, they gonna entangle their hands together, and ahaa~n kind of development gonna happen!” (Kagami)

Yeah, it’s [that].

Somehow, it feels like, today we finally able to truly meet each other and then becoming friends.

 

 

 

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